My Life

these memories of mine
and the tears that i cry
when nobody is here
all the love disappears
destroy all my pride
thinking back on the night
when I wanted to die
cos I hated my life, my life


turn around and walk away
i need some personal space
to get my mind straight
i'm disappearing without a trace
my life is just a waste
of money and women
its like love
is just a waste of my tears and my feelings
nobody else is living my life except myself
i can choose to ignore the condition of my health
bad days become worst
its getting harder to really speak
explain whats on my mind
its everything all combined


damn it I ain't lying
dear God I feel like dying
why is it every night that my eyes continue crying
alone here in the dark
I'm writing these last words
my gift is not a blessing
my exception is a curse
thought it couldn't be worst
feeling how much it hurts
my pride is ready to burst
I'm putting myself first
tryna help someone else
before I can help myself
I wanna end the pain that's real
that's how I feel


these memories of mine
and the tears that i cry
when nobody is here
all the love disappears
destroy all my pride
thinking back on the night
when i wanted to die
cos i hated my life, my life